Grieving*

Hiding in my room tonight
Crying
Like I'm a child
Praying for light

Flashes of red
Screaming
Like I'm insane
Hitting the bed

Ignoring what happened
Denying
Like I can't see
My spirit dampened

Offering a deal
Begging
Like a pauper
Yearning to heal

Trying to give blame
Wondering
Like it's my fault
Ending the game

Life moving on
Accepting
Like I give up
Knowing you're gone


*when my Mom passed away (12 years ago this month) we had a very nice chaplain come to the room and explain the grieving process to us. There are 5 accepted stages to grieving (I consider it to be 6 when you add depression/sadness into the mix), in no particular order: Anger, guilt, denial, bargaining, and acceptance.