Hidden (unfinished)

Look what I found in your pocket tonight
It's not meant for me or for my sight
What does she give you that I can't compare
All I get is your empty stare

I gave you a world of comfort and love
Now I send prayers up to heaven above
Let me be wrong please don't be lost
Leave her alone I'm worth that cost

You lied when you said never again
You don't realize I know where you've been

My Fear

What I fear is that this is who you've always been
That my shattered dream will break our hearts again
Looking back I wonder who you ever were
Are my memories of you just my selfish blur?

Do my dreams inmpose on my reality?
Am I seeing you in totality?
Are you just an illusion of my heart?
Did I ever know you from the start?

I tried so hard not to lose our connection
Not realizing it was your heart that needed protection
You tried to push me away but didn't know how
To make me leave without breaking your vow

Was I a fool to believe you were my destiny?
To expect you to have the best in me?
I gave my heart waiting for you to find mine
Refusing to see in your resistance a sign

Discouraging Sublimity

Every act an altruistic one
Denying myself both comfort and fun
Just a lost soul with an amenable touch
Using you as an emotional crutch
Feeling the upsetting of my mind
Breaking my heart to be unkind
Surrendering to submission
With my soul in opposition
Doomed to an esoteric existance
I'll always keep my distance
Rarely suffering from enmity
I'm not content in anonmity
Hardly valiant and rarely vane
I struggle to keep my voices sane
With intuition that's seldom wrong
Turning vehmemence into song
I smother the sublimity of my mind
Which keeps me in a torturous bind
Quick to believe slow to forget
Trusting has been my biggest regret

Sitting in solitude

Sitting in solitude listening:
waves lapping at dock;
o'er moss covered rock.

Sitting in solitude watching:
a bird in dive;
a world alive.

Sitting in solitude smelling:
the scent of fish;
tonight's main dish.

Sitting in solitude touching:
cool water on feet:
the sand's prickly heat.

Sitting in solitude feeling:
warm sun on my shoulder;
I shall never grow older.

Sitting in solitude dreaming:
enjoying God's gift;
thoughts start to drift.

Reflection on a friendship

My friend I have never let you down
We've giggle and gossiped and painted the town
You've been my friend when I didn't want one
We've traveled through both darkness and sun
You've been my companion through thick and thin
Through sisterly love and mild sin
On your support I thought I could count
Now I'm filled with fearful doubt
Now as I write my sorry lamentation
Our friendship heads for certain damnation
A hurtful decision to betray my trust
How can I consider your judgment just?
Of Christian values we all stray
That unfortunately is the human way
But I distrust our connection is so strong
That ever we could right your wrong

Let Me

Let me ease your pain when you hurt
Let me be the only woman you flirt
Let me put joy in your heart
Let me from you never part
Let me hold your hand in mine
Let me on your love dine
Let me feel your tender touch
Let me love you oh so much
Let me be your everything
Let me make your heart sing
Let me with you laughter share
Let me with you our souls bare
Let me know just how you feel
Let me know our love is real
Let me always in your eyes shine
Let me know you're always mine
Let me be your one & only
Let me for you never be lonely
Let me always be your friend
Let me love you to the very end

Our Love

Our love is kind
Our love is pure
A forever love
Of this I’m sure

A gentle touch
A soft warm gaze
Carries me through
Our toughest days

An honest heart
A truthful soul
A connection deep
And forever whole