Without you

I hate this pain you've given me
why does it have to cut so deep
It disturbs my mind, and breaks my heart
and even robs my sleep

You promised me ever lasting love
then you took it clean away
Why is it you can't love me
What is it you can't say

My heart is waiting for you to come back
my mind still doesn't believe it's true
My soul feels like it's dying
All from the lack of you

Hurt Me

Just break my heart
and throw it away
I'm better without it anyway

Blame me for your pain
and cut me deep
go on, take that final leap

Push me hard
and over the edge
make me fall off that ledge

Stab my back
and twist the knife
Take away my will for life

Hurt me until
it won't hurt no more
Only then walk out that door

I miss you

I miss the way you smile
I miss the way you laugh
I miss the way you make me shriek whenever you slap my ass

I miss the way you talk to me
I miss our little jokes
I even miss the bickering like ancient married folks

I miss the love in your eyes
I miss your tender touch
I miss the comfort of your arms so very very much

I miss your sense of humor
I miss being by your side
I miss that you won't share with me these feelings you now hide

Anxiety

Nervous confusion, land of delusion,

Panic attack, about to crack,
nervous meltdown, mental breakdown,
heart pumping, head thumping.
pulse racing, scared of facing,
quiet screams, dying dreams,
perfection, rejection, total undirection

Constant scared, unprepared,
confidence fleeting, heart skip-a-beating,
can't sleep, thoughts too deep,
high strung, hands are wrung,
feeling sick, air seems thick,
impending doom, monsters loom,
still can't eat, feeling beat, can't give in to big defeat,

Need order, pushed over border,
can't do right, goal out of sight,
prove them wrong, road's so long.
seems so quick, which to pick?
indecision, shattered vision,
unwarranted fear, shed a tear, danger always looming near.

Bohemian

I measure my life in love not money

I measure my life in the love I give and the love I receive

I believe in creativity and individuality

I believe that everyone's thoughts and feelings are important

I believe in having an open-mind and expanding my horizons

I believe success is achieved by what we give, not receive

Remembering your hazel eyes

Your eyes are sand
you make me feel warmed by the sun,
caressed by the calm sea
Your eyes are a rock flecked with gold
you are my anchor,
your solidness inspires me
Your eyes are grey steel
you lock me out to protect me,
an impenatrable door
Your eyes are electric
you excite me and leave me
always wanting more
Your eyes a green trees
tall and strong, only falling
if you are cut deep
Your eyes have captured my heart,
it's love forever yours
to keep

The Effects of Depression

You once promised me a world
of candlelight dinner
What happened to the man who of
my heart was the winner?
Roses so sweet on the table
to find
What turned your soul so dark
and unkind?

I can still see you in there
beneath the sorrow and pain
In a cell dark and dismal
full of thunder and rain
A child hidden
from sunlight
Is there end
to your dreary night?

You need to make me believe
you still love me
The love I feel
I wish you could see
speak to me with your heart
tell me how you feel
Only then, my precious,
can I help you heal